Updates & Coming Back!

Hi everyone,

Nothing To Disclose

How I've missed this space - it has literally been so long!  I'm so sad that I haven't been able to actively blog, communicate, & share my love of nail art, polish, etc with you all through much of the tail end of last year and most of the first half of this one.  I wanted to come back today because I'm finally in a place where I've processed some things and I'm able to share with you all what has been going on for those of your that remain and shockingly those of you who are newcomers despite my radio silence.

I think most of my longtime followers know I've never had very good health.  This blog is riddled with "I'm Back" posts because my health teeters so precariously at times to lows where I can't do anything but hold on and that has definitely been the case of late.  I wanted to take this time to share my story with you all so that you understand why I have been missing & why I almost gave up this blog and everything else.

This all started when I got a vaccination for the influenza this fall.  This is a vaccination I get annually and actually its required obligation of my regular employment in healthcare outside of my blogging.  Unfortunately I became one of those rare individuals that had a reaction to my vaccination.  In my case it was a severe auto-immune mediate cardiac inflammation - myopericarditis.  This played hell on me and I was hospitalized for a long period as a result of this.  I was also placed on so many different medications without a response and the bad part is that one of these medications cut off the blood supply to the bones in my knees over time.  The result of that is that I am now wheelchair bound.  I spent almost 2 months in a hospital before I was allowed to go home mainly so that I could learn how to walk with the assistance of an aide and move safely about my home in this new state.  

It has been devastating.  I'll say it again - devastating.  I've been sick before certainly severely sick, but this is the first time in my life that it has continued almost unendingly without much progress being made.  It's affected all aspects of my life in all forms and I'm no longer able to work.  I'm still so sick and on so much medication and seeing so many different doctors.  Honestly I don't know what the end game will be.  I just know I don't want these things to change me.  

I'm slowly coming back to myself and also discovering myself after these changes.  I know a few things - I've missed my nails, which btw are significantly shorter due to my health problems, and the sort of peace I get from creating new art & techniques, I missed talking to all of you about our shared passions & just chatting in general, and I've just missed being me.  So once again I'm back.  I hope you all now have a better understanding of why I've been gone for so long this time.  I hope you can forgive me for being gone so long.  I can only say when one is going through hell its best to just keep going and that's what I've been doing.  I finally want to say welcome back and please definitely catch me up on all that I've been missing or things you've wanted to see from me during my absence!  I love you all and welcome back!

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Tamira